“Oh
my gosh why would you that?”
“You sound bitter… (He’s like a brother so he gets away with way too
much.)”
“Are you serious?”
“If you want me to go
with you just ask me…”
Above are the responses
I have received from my family and friends when I tell them I'm planning a trip
by myself.
My feelings have gone
from excitement with a side of nervous to just plain doubtfulness. What if I am
really crazy...? What 22-year-old goes on solo trips? This prompted me to think
about what I do on a day to day basis.
Examples of my
craziness/weirdness:
- I don't mind going to the movies by myself.
- I have gone to dinner at a semi nice restaurant and sat at the bar reading a good book.
- I love working out by myself.
- I signed up for a half-marathon and trained all on my. [It's next Sunday in Dallas. Wish me luck!(:]
I absolutely have an
amazing group of friends who would join me in a heart-beat. I feel incredibly
grateful and proud to call them my friends. But I'm the type of person that
needs to be reminded that I am able and capable. Of what exactly? Of anything!
I feel in your twenties
you should do things that scare the crap out of you but empower you and inspire
you to be a better person. Confidence and self-esteem are like muscles
that we must exercise.
I feel that when you
graduate college it is so incredibly easy to settle and stay in that
comfortable job that pays the bills and allows you to have a decent life. But
to be honest, I have a million and one dreams in my suitcase that terrify me
and thrill me at the same time. Those dreams will require confidence,
fearlessness, determination, fire, resilience and thick skin.
So a question I ask
myself often is how do I prevent myself from settling. How can I remind myself
of the fire that is within? How can I remind myself that I only have one life?
How do I remind myself in the middle of all the chaos of being twenty-something not to store my suitcase away but to keep it open and by the door? How can I learn to silence all the voices even from the people I love the most and say my decision is enough. I'm not crazy or being unreasonable.
How do I remind myself in the middle of all the chaos of being twenty-something not to store my suitcase away but to keep it open and by the door? How can I learn to silence all the voices even from the people I love the most and say my decision is enough. I'm not crazy or being unreasonable.
p.s. Embrace the Journey.
p.p.s I'm so going!
XO
-J
